The light behind my eyes is gone

For a while it was dimmed

Struggling against newfound darkness

Luster fading with each passing moment

Doubt settling into every cloaked corner of my mind

Now the light has diminished

Now it is nonexistent

I don’t know when it will return or if it ever will

But I am now familiar with its absence

Against my better judgement

When the light faded, a dull ache took its place

Radiating from head to heart

Pain struck relentlessly like lightning in a torrential storm

Exhausted from the loss of motivation, I continued to yearn for a chance to find my spark once more

Still the darkness persisted and insisted

Willing itself upon me like a curse

Suffocating, snuffing out any chance for hope

Desperation called for the familiar grip of a rope

Tightly coiled, hugging the veins in my neck

Constricting until peace engulfed..

With a final breath to release the burden of solitude